My name is Nathania, or lavenderpeace as some people in the world may know me as. I am finally in university, studying Nutritional and Nutraceutical Sciences.
Living a comfortable life full with high and low times, and despite it all I love it.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Hurray! Its post-exam period!!
I had my last exam today (namely chemistry) and wow. I am sort of happy I didn't give up on studying that. While Tom fell asleep on the phone for a bit before hanging up (that was like 11 something) I stayed up doing notes til 2am. Also woke up at 6 or so thanks to my newly found alarm clock (Mr. Froggy! :D)
So while I was waiting for Tom to finish writing his exam, I was hanging out with John and Andrew. It was sort of funny but really boring. I tried falling asleep but then I couldn't. So I ended up playing Rolando for a while until Chris came out of photography exam. Started talking about Tom and his "cute ways" haha.... teeheee. It still makes me smile though I am very tired right now...
Gone to Swiss Chalet today with friends to eat... haha. I never really noticed how long it has been since I went out with Tom, let alone see him. Made me miss him more and I guess I feel more attached...?
So. With semi-formal tomorrow, I am so excited to see everyone dressed up. Also, I will be extremely obsessed and I swear I will be only able to see one person tomorrow night... wonder who that might be. Michael? Tom? someone else? Only time can tell...
Well then. I am completely exhausted and watching dramas, I want to go to sleep. Or just relax more.
Nap-time!
4:53 PM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Thats right. I posted. I updated. I LIVE.
Well then. How shall I start this off?
School. Having to attend a semestered school has its ups and downs. You have less exams, but you are constantly stressing and applying pressure on yourself. Applying so much pressure that it almost feels like you will burst soon, similar to a balloon. Oh the sadness of caring for marks so much. Perhaps many others (including myself) care too much about numbers on a sheet of paper that may affect our future and success in life but remembering biology class, succession is not always about wealth. It could be how many offsprings you have so you are "successful" in that sense because your genes were passed on to another generation. Yes, I have taken that in while I have been snoozing in class.
My father has been informing me that I do not prioritize well enough. To be honest, I do agree with him for I have been using up most of my time on Vocal music (a course that I am taking) rather than biology nor chemistry which do matter. Fortunately he did not mention mathematics because I already prove him wrong on that part. Which now brings me to remember what Mr. Denobrega (my math teacher) told my friends and I whilst we were packing our things up to go off to lunch. He jokingly said that all the Asians in the class leave last because they would like to soak in all the math as long as they could. It was amusing, and I will miss him dearly for I have learned quite well with him as a teacher. Actually, overall I enjoyed all my teachers. Especially Mr. Sullivan (my biology teacher) not because I had an obsession with impressing him, but perhaps I am very concerned about him all the time. Many students who have had him all can agree his health is slowly depleting, and though many will dislike his teaching style, it teaches us how to be independent and not rely on teachers as much, for university professors would be similar to Mr. Sullivan.
In preparation with many projects (CPTs) and examination reviews, I have little time to spend with friends and family, and also focus some time on God, to thank him and pray for those in Haiti. I feel very terrible about it, but it just seems as if I am very selfish and focusing on exams when other people in the world need more attention than "I AM GOING TO FAIL THIS EXAM!". Hopefully after tomorrow I could find a place to donate some money to aid those in Haiti. Also start reading the newspaper again to get updates on Haiti's condition.
Well then, this is perhaps my last update before exams.
10 pages back-to-back of math reviews, reviewing and answering chemistry exam reviews (made by Dinglasan), and making notes on biology! Hurray!
let the pressure and fear sink in and take over.
8:39 PM
Monday, January 11, 2010
I would dislike doing this on a regular basis, but i think i should do a rant. about Tom. Whoever finds this too sweet/sickening, stop reading NOW.
Snowfall on the most magical day
though it felt like my sky was so grey
Though there was sunshine beside me
All throughout Luke and between classes
In my heart, my mind, forever since the beginning.
Waking up in somewhere different all I thought about was you.
When I was tired, I tried to be strong because I did not want to give in to your warmth for I will miss it so when class begins.
Vocal class and while being tired and looking at the clock
Think of your expression and how you would laugh at me
How I would laugh with you, and how I would take a picture of it in my mind.
When class finishes, keeping a lookout for you but it is so rare.
Chemistry works wonders with tired people and a locked door
Thinking about the laptop, biology ahead and you on my mind
tried searching for you, but I obviously failed.
Alas you found me after chemistry and walked to math
Though I was perhaps a bit unresponsive I was happy with your presence.
Mathematics, I did not understand a thing for I wanted to go back out and find you
Perhaps I was too cold like the winter air.
Bitter, cold hearted, spreading pain to your every exposed body part when it gets too cold.
Post-school I felt as if... I saw you, but I was not sure
though i was walking in front of you, I was too frustrated with how terrible I felt
Keep stressing over nothing, making you worried
But I know that is just you
I have to learn to accept it
To learn to let you into my darkest corner
Let go of all my fears and tell you everything in my world
The world I tried to keep separate
A secret from you and the rest of the world.
Whilst I push you away
Just keep coming closer
For you may be breaking the wall
and find the true me.
5:13 PM
Clearly at 2am in the morning, I am NOT okay. AT ALL. Tired like hell, but finally after perhaps 12 hours of slaving in front of my laptop (and add another like what? 2 days?) and you get my vocals cpt. and HELL. i haven't studied biology but you know what? Sullivan can KILL ME I DON'T GIVE A SHIT.
okay i'm done. I'm at Fiona's and we had a lot of fun doing this... haha MOUSTACHES!! and i'm sleeping over because I highly doubt my parents would let me stay til 2am and then come pick me up... like jeezz.... unless Fiona drives but I don't know... the story about her and her dad was kinda funny yet freaky already... can't trust her yet... not yet. :D
okay well after this facebook video loads, I'm off to brush my teeth with my pea buddy. LOL (2 peas in a pod, she's the other pea.)
NIGHT!
2:15 AM
Sunday, January 03, 2010
First post of the year!
Looking at the time, I don't think many would be pleased that I am blogging at such a late time.
I was researching sugar alcohols, and to be honest, REALLY tough stuff. I've been at it fully focused for a while, and its not so good. :(
Tom/Mr. Epic has been away for a while... but he'll be back soon.
I don't know what to write about...
What Kay told me really affected me... I don't want to go into detail, but its just.. big. ish. ;P
I'm tired. I want to procrastinate. But i have to finish this... I will make myself a slave until I finish everything... screw Chemistry... i'm doing Vocal cpt tomorrow.
more later. need to finish chemistry as much as i can tonight, sleep, and go venture to the library tomorrow.
*sigh* let the stress begin for exam period is coming up.
and so is semi! :D
2:29 AM
