My name is Nathania, or lavenderpeace as some people in the world may know me as. I am finally in university, studying Nutritional and Nutraceutical Sciences.
Living a comfortable life full with high and low times, and despite it all I love it.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
i bothered you for so long... it seemed like... a dream when i liked you, never wanting to let go. I never wanted to. But... i feel like such a burden. Jennifer and Michael says that a girl taking all the initiative is bad. I don't know if i should listen to myself or them. They are right. It seems like... I'm always the one trying to get people to talk to me. Can someone say clingy??
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i know you do Leon, but... i dunno. I started crying because I felt the pain. The hurt in everything when u were gone. I can't do this. Sadness always overwhelms me. I guess this is because when I like others, they don't like me back that way.
Sharon, Jenn and Mike says my life is weird, when I like someone, they don't like back, so when they actually do, then I don't anymore. But I do still have strong feelings for you. I know you do too. But it seems like everytime I talk to you, everything is so different, so far away. It seems like everything's slipping.
Everytime we talk about this, the more it hurts inside. Tears streaming down my face, trying to type this. This is even harder than saying goodbye to Aleethia, or her grandmother, knowing she was going to die.
I Miss You && Forever will
nathaniiaa;*
p.s. I still do like you.
6:47 PM
